M.L. Lanzillotta

M.L. is a writer living in the Washington, DC metro area. He’s the author of a number of novels. In his spare time he paints, dances, directs, acts, cooks and embroiders.

Seroquel Gave Me a Reminder That All Drugs Are Merely Tools

Drugs are not good or bad. They are simply morally neutral tools which can help or hurt, depending on context.…

August 30, 2022

No, My Prescribed Opioid Use Was Not a “Relapse”

Society tends to view banned drugs and their use in binary terms. People who disclose drug use are instantly assumed…

May 11, 2022

How I Quit Heroin and Why That Hasn’t Fixed My Life

There exists a common misconception that if a person uses illicit drugs, all of their problems stem from their drug…

January 27, 2022

What I Wish Someone Had Said to Me When I Started Using Drugs

When I began using drugs, I didn’t have anyone I could safely go to for advice or help. Nobody in…

December 14, 2021

How My Drug Use Has Become More Sustainable Over Time

When I first began using opioids, in 2017 when I was 18, I knew nothing of harm reduction. My high…

October 13, 2021

The Kind Man Who Used to Sell Me Heroin

In popular culture, people who sell drugs are stereotyped as remorseless monsters, like the loathsome Mikey Forrester from the book…

February 4, 2021

What It’s Like to Be “Out” as a Person Who Uses Heroin

In May 2019 Louise Vincent, executive director of the Urban Survivors Union, urged privileged drug users to “come out” in…

December 28, 2020

Why Dark-Web Drug Marketplaces Can Be a Refuge

Whether because of fentanyl adulteration or the present pandemic, buying drugs from the “dark web”—a term for sites in the…

April 21, 2020

I Chose Functional Heroin Use. Here’s How It Works for Me.

Recovery from addiction is different for everyone. In my case, abstinence from heroin didn’t work. Neither did medication. Anonymous meetings,…

May 23, 2019